Jazz Underground Lady K

NOW TRYING TO IDENTIFY SOMETHING NEW COMING

I like to sleep in and write on my laptop in bed. I'm not going to try to compensate. I have no recourse. I'll try not to make conclusions. I see myself walking. I've been walking all my life. I go in the direction I should walk in. I will do only what is appropriate. Is there someone who knows where I am? Interestingly some things improve matters that at first I wasn't sure about. I wonder if it is wise to take the path of least resistance. I know that there might be a point when I might break down in tears. I wonder if there will be a point where I feel like reality instead of just a ghost.

Rielly Stares

 

PLANT SHEPHERD

I water 3 plants at work

Just now went to each, thrust
my fingers through their leaves
into their soil to check for moistness

and flashed on this morning
you on your stomach
my fingers deep
sampling your wetness

None of these need water

though I may need to sample you more
to see your need
so I’ve made an appointment
for you to be closely examined
tomorrow after work in my sanctuary
in The Church of Not Quite So Much Pain & Suffering

Steven B. Smith

 

WHY I LIKE THE NEW MAN

I spent thousands of dollars on things I probably didn't need. I think in the abstract things probably worked out all right in the end. Though the consequences of this wastefulness are affecting me enough even today. I hope I'll never make such terrible decisions again. I've been examining the decision-making process. People seem to have a lot of advice to give me for some reason. I think decisions are sacred and sometimes advice is too easy to give. The new man has patience to see what will come of things. I've fallen in love with him. In the past I've been an all-or-nothing kind of person, and the only thing I ever understood was immediacy and rock-and-roll. I was kind of a purist and preferred instant and eternal decision-making. Now I reel when I think of the way it was. There is too much room in the instant eternal for enormous mistakes. Now when I make decisions it's usually into the days and weeks and months. The new man knows the brunt of bad advice. When the new man speaks he is thoughtful and says true things I don't expect. He considers what has happened when he makes decisions. I can feel the real memories of his desperate times. He has eyes for protection and eyes for innovation.

Rielly Stares

Self Centered Steven B. Smith