Reflection da Vinci Steven B. Smith

I AM THIRSTY - INTERESTED IN THE INEVITABLE ENDING

I am thirsty - interested in the inevitable ending of what I feel I cannot stand for another day. But sadly it could take months. I must remember that it will not actually kill me if this thing perpetuates, though I feel I'm just trying to survive and get by. The despair and feelings of worthlessness are inconvenient. It matters to me. Things I cry about when I don't have time. Now when I stay up late to do something I love on a work night I think: From the depth of my soul! Why did I force myself to stay up so late last night? How could I? And what was so desperate that it could not wait? If I can't give myself rest what can I possibly be capable of? Am I not on my own side?

Rielly Stares

 

GOING DOWN RED WITH STAN

2 bottles past eight
and I'm already on this site
posting the evening
incoherently
forgive my typos
but my glasses are upstairs
and I'll just call it
creative liberty anyway
We talked about vacations
and "practice" spouses
landscaping projects
and latest inbibations
Stan always buys
and I always drink more
than half
It's the courteous thing to do
I don't drive home
so why should I care
I stuff the carafe in a
to go bag and we leave laffing
He already has three
he tells me
The pesto was divine
and our spouses
tolerant
In less that 2 months
we will all be cruising
Warm waters and nonstop
wine
Stan is my vino validater
We drink it breakfast
to nightcap
Tonight I dripped a swirl
on a new blouse
I bought it for the cruise
It's the 2nd I ruined that way
I told off color jokes
and pointed my fork
in emphasis
My teeth are red
My tongue is purple
My head is happy
Stan buys the wine
I drink it to be polite

the rest is an epilogue

Cheryl Townsend